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One of my mentors, Cheryl Merridith, once told me her dear friend was battling cancer and it was in stage 4. She encouraged me with this mindset of her friend, “I'll race you to the finish line.” God talks a lot about this race, this call, this life… Run it like it matters.   Everything hinders around eternity and this race marked out for us. But, we know the challenges and distractions, heartbreaks and trials, even just the unseen vs. seen… My point is there's a lot going on.    But I'm convinced nothing is greater than our God.   How we start matters. It's Sunday and I started like this… I listened to the devotional for Sugar Fast 2 times. It's short. I listened to Lectio 365 a few times while I was at the gym. I listened to worship after that. While I was at the gym my friend texted me saying she was at Red Rocks and it's so good. She needs me to listen to that and something else she has been thinking about. So, on my way to church I listened to Red Rocks. IT WAS SO GOOD. I want to put the link here, but it won't be up until Tuesday… but if you get a chance listen.    I'm not telling you this to brag or boast, but I do plenty of non Christ focused things…but… when I look at our life and what we have going on… I WANT God's perspective. I want to live in the world but not be of this world. So, I am intentional. Intentional to fix my mind, my heart, my intake, my conversations on God.   Check out the app Lectio 365 Listen to Red Rocks from this weekend. Want a worship playlist? We have a great one here.   Scott and I were talking about a bunch of things… and He reminded me… it's like our faith.. we don't just become followers of Jesus and call it good. We get to choose to be intentional to take care, to grow, to be intentional. We are not stuck. It isn't just where it is right now. We have a choice to make about our faith… lean in to Jesus… He is life! Move In my wrestling match with God… a few things. For a long time we have been praying about who God wants in our life. In a weird way I think maybe I have been a hoarder of friends. My capacity busted. I was working a ton, lost a lot of intentional connections… and was left with space. Some of this was life, some of it was covid… anyway… at the end of the day, we all have a limited capacity.    In a weird way I feel like we moved to a new city or state, but we live in the same space. We have been asking God where He wants us and I feel a bit like the man at the well. when Jesus said, do you want to get well? In this case, it's like do you want to know where I want you? Because, if I take you there, you may grieve what you are leaving. You will miss the comforts of the known. So, we have just been continuing to ask God daily what He has for us today.    As we look around, a lot has changed. We would have never imagined our feet would find us here.    Here is my observation this week.   God, I feel like sometimes I kick, complain, whine, and drag my feet to follow you. I can't see the way. I don't know where we are going. I honestly have no idea where we are going. I would have never imagined this… and thanks for the reminder this weekend that I can trust you. I saw a video of a kid yelling in his crib, mommy you get in here right now. Mommy. Mom! I feel like that. Like you are watching on the monitor with a plan for me that's good. You hear me. You see me. You know me. And you know that pruning hurts. That I will resist change and grieve loss. You know I'll need rest. You know my needs. AND you have a plan and your plan is good. You are worthy of my trust. You are doing incredibly more than I can ask for or imagine. I desire to trust you, to follow you, to go where you are leading!    LOVE YOU. Thanks for leading my heavy feet, my broken heart, my wandering feet, into YOUR WAY! I just want to be right in the center of your will. Thanks for a glimpse of your goodness this weekend. Love you.    We read so often about the God of Abraham, Issac, and Jacob. The God of David. God wants us to know him… and believe. The way God leads Abraham gives me faith. "And he said to him, “I am the Lord who brought you out from Ur of the Chaldeans to give you this land to possess.”” ‭‭Genesis‬ ‭15‬:‭7‬ ‭ESV‬‬ God lead his people then and He leads his people now. The ONE TRUE GOD who IS, is with us. Lead us oh LORD. We believe.